Tuesday, July 7, 2009

So, this is going to be partially weight-loss related and then sort of not at the same time.
Here's first...
I found a quote that I put up on my xanga once when I was younger, but I didn't really stick to it. I think it's time. Here's the quote: "You know what I'm gonna do? Everything. And then I'm gonna turn around and I'm gonna do it again. And I'm not gonna give a rat's ass about who disapproves and how I look doing it."
I believe that i should stick to this and so should everyone else, in order to have a wonderful life.
Weird things happened at work today. First, I had a mini-breakdown and cried to my friend about how I have nothing to offer and how I'm never going to end up with anyone, which is partially brought on because my best friends are gorgeous and wonderful and I can't help but be insanely jealous of them all the time. I also felt like I was doing a shitty job at work and I didn't know what to do about that. I'm over it..sort of. I mean, I still feel that way. I'm just not crying about it, which is a step up, I guess.
The other thing that happened is this. I work at a summer camp as the creative director and this one counselor, who we realize now is a complete fuckin' idiot, excuse my language, but you'll understand why in a second. She walked outside with a kid and just left him there, sitting on the steps outside until one of us realized that she had just left him there. We all bugged out when we found out. It was bad. I just don't get it--We talked about how a person's child is like their entire life, but I guess that didn't mean anything to her. Needless to say, she's getting fired.

But onto weight loss stuff. So this morning I got on the scale and saw 208 which was wonderful. I was so happy. I'm under 210! I hope that's the same after today. Jeez, I really need me a food journal. I don't remember what the hell I eat. I haven't been going to Weight Watchers, because I need to find a new meeting, because the old one got a little boring for me.
Here's the food intake.
Breakfast- Dry Cereal--Big mistake. I should've eaten like a normal person, but whatever.
Lunch- Half a tuna fish sandwich with lettuce. It was white bread, so it wasn't very good. But I guess it was okay.
Snack- I had a little bit of my friend's pasta, a bunch of rice cakes, and a bag of pretzels. Bad Rachel. I know.
Dinner- I went to a diner, so this could've been much worse. I drank water instead of soda and I ate a turkey burger with two onion rings and crunchy french fries. Not that great, but not that bad either.
I really wanted to walk home, but I was wearing a skirt and had a chafing problem, so I opted for taking the bus. Um, I think that's pretty much it. We might be having an inspection at work tomorrow, so I should really get to sleep if my camp is going to pass.
Hope everyone is doing well! Good night.

3 comments:

Monica said...

Hey girlie :) DEFINITELY get a food journal, decorate it and put pics of yourself in it.

CONGRATS ON BEING UNDER 210! :)

starfish264 said...

Hey,

Right first - I totally understand the friend dilemma, because I spend far too much time looking at my friends' lives and wondering where I went wrong. Then I talk to them, and they tell me all the things they envy about my life, and I realise that the grass is always greener on the otherside, or not, but you get what I mean.

Secondly - the reason they envy bits of my life is that I firmly adhere to your motto about try everything. It leads me to do ridiculous things like windsurf and rock-climb and doing high-wire courses, or just running off for a day to have a picnic and act like a bunch of children - but they don't do it, and they're sure as hell missing out.

Thirdly - definitely journal! There was a program a while ago here in the UK about a woman who couldn't figure out why she put on weight. They asked what she ate (not tracking, just listing it at the end of the day) and it came to about 1400 calories a day. Then they asked to track properly and video it - it turned out she literally forgot about half of what she put in her mouth. Needless to say she was shocked. Tracking is powerful, and makes you powerful because it allows you to make educated choices. Go for it!

And lastly, you're right - you're counseller sounds like an idiot!

Keep going - you're doing great! :o)

Stormy Vawn Bradley said...

Congrats on being under 210. I just made it under 210 as well. We are on our way to "one"derland. I cannot wait to be in the 100's.. We can do this.